♥cries...♥
Date: Monday, July 17, 2006
well...i ignored him totally...not answering his calls and not replying to his sms...until this afternoon...sihui helped to get him to cum to sch as we finished our accounts lecture earlier...
then we had a rrly good tok...though both of us cry so much tt our eyes r swollen...well...i tink it's worth it for now...
abt mahjong....abt smoking...abt everything i'm not happie wif...n wadever we have to tok abt...well..first he disappoint me by telling me...if i tink he is unable to take care of me well...i'm welcomed to look for other guys and give him up...haix...i feel so hurt...doesn't he noe i luv him more than i luv myself...so y should he say this...first stab at my heart...another matter...i told him e last time he smoked...before he tink of smoking...tink of how i will feel when i found out...and if he rrly smoked...tt means i've nv been in his heart...well...he smoked againx...so...second stab...
it rrly hurts alot...i cant slp last nite....deprived of slp today...so tired....cant do any work properly...ect...i noe he also feel e same...but he made e effort to cum down to apologise for the mahjong incident...but i still tink i got the rite to be angry at him for the other 2 matters...
welll....cum to tink of...social smokers...i said it once n i wont say it againx...i cannot accept a bf who smokes...well...social smokers smokes after all okie...he agree n promise me he WONT smoke againx...well...he did...n now excuses r given like at least he's only a social smoker now...fine then...however...after a long long tok...both of us came into agreement...sumthing tt is supposed to be known by us....
i hope things r alright now...
hope the new agreement works..i dun wan another heartbreaking session...crying our hearts out...and having our eyes swollen while shopping...
i rrly luv u dear...i wan my old dearie to be back!!! e ever so sweet n nice...caring and understanding keith....i wan him back!! can i have him back? pls?
♥ [ Missy Avril ]
